the old days and ways

i was born remembering pieces of my past life.....i was born knowing from my earliest memory that i am/was a full blood lakota, and pieced together that my people were sicangu lakota......i was b9rn about 1798 on the missouri river and my band was living around the location or North Platte nebraska in my early years, travelling north to the black hills and the rest of our people who stayed east, north and sometimes west of Bear Butte south Dakota...............some of the incidents and memories will be passed along in these 'blogs'.....i clearly recall the landscape and when i later travelled there as an adult in this life, except for the roads and houses, the actual landscape was exactly as i recalled it to be...i found where we camped, hunted and lived........when i was about 10 or 12 years old in that life,i recall sitting by one of the buffalo hide tipi and talking with a middle aged man....i called him 'uncle', a term of respect whether he was my blood uncle or not, and i asked him why we were camped there, when the rest of our people camped north of us.....he told me that the non natives were coming, and tyhat a few years earlier they came along the river in boats, when we still camped north with our people,and it had to be the earliest exporers mapping the rivers for others to follow.....he said our old holy men saw what was to come, with non natives pouring into the land one day, and that this area of north platte would be a main route,and so we were camped down here to try to intimidate them from entering our territory, mostly north of that.....he said they would be very many coming, and that is why every time we killed buffalo, and the flies gathered like a swarm at the kill, people would say the wasicu were coming, meaning thay would be many, swarming to the dying of our ways.....he said there was no stopping it, the holy men see 7 generations ahead, and it was to be, but we would do what we must, and defend our lands and people....but this time, that should have been happy and joyous, still living free, was tainted by the knowledge of what was to come, and a mist of great heart sick sadness kept trying to pull us down, and we all struggled to keep the light and harmony alive, for that was the way of life we were struggling, and would even fight to defend......not just the physical life of roaming the lands, hunting, gathering and fishing,...but, to spiritual way of life.....this was the feeling, discussion, and view of THAT time period........it was also known, then, in the early 1800's, that parts of our way must go, so that the next world could come.....( this concept was later embraced by wovoka in his 'visions'( which i suspect were induced and there for not totally reliable)........in this life, i encountered some very old natives who knew this all full well, but refused to let go of control, power and position, to make way for the changing world to come,.....and one very old cheyenne holy man told me they would all be leaving, and until the new holy men and holy women of the next era of humanity arise and go old enough to be wise, there would only be a few keeping things moving in the right direction for the sake of all humanity, not just their own little tribe, nation, country or ethnic group.....we are in that transitional period now, and the young children of today will be the first true elders and holy ones of the new era; and the next seven generation are marked by a continued struggle of light and spirit against darkness, greed, and personal lusts.....by 2045,the young children today in 2010 will be able to look back on their lives, and know for sure they have 'made it' and any danger of slipping back into the twilight of mind and spirit; has passed. until then, we must each struggle to live in light and harmony, to guide there young ones to make the right future for all mankind.....anyone who disputes this; does not KNOW what they are talking about, i am one of the transitional keepers....galleagle@hotmail.com